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zoning out
04:48
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nothing has changed
02:13
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drowning, still gone
i'm lost, still gone
fall through, in too deep
in too deep, i can't breathe
know my place, feel my shame
know my place, can't escape
even if i wanted to
there's nowhere to run to
don't know how to deal with it
don't know how to feel
all the pain, embarrassment
never fucking heal
chances that i can't take back
even if i wanted to
scars and crosses on my back
never thought i'd feel like that
in my place, all shame
can't escape, can't relate
don't know how to deal with it
tell me what's the deal
crushing me in
crushing me slow
embarrassed to the core
tell me where to go
all the shame
embarrassment, yeah
know my place, feel my shame
know my place, can't escape
even if i wanted to
there's nowhere to run to
don't know how to deal with it
don't know how to feel
all the pain, embarrassment
never fucking heal
put me down and in my place
feel the weight i feel the shame
put me down and in my place
put me down
down down down
down down down
i feel shame
all i feel is hate
i'm embarrassed 'bout this shit
no you can't relate
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failing
04:17
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disconnected
02:03
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unspeakable
03:30
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it's a never ending summer
stuck in cyclical attachments
can't think about forever
i wake up sweating and frantic
loveless and empty handed
i cannot expect anybody else to understand it
coming up and undercover
slipping in and out the static
can't even feel the pressure now
showed up to throw off your balance
it's not god it's magic
the patterns control us, i'm sick of your pedantics
you said it was bygones, still sleep with the lights on
acting rough and tough but where it lie, your loyalty?
have a feeling the horizon you painted us was biased
dressed up like a python, chameleon royalty
sitting pretty on your throne counting your diamonds
while outside there are burning homes
that energy gonna blacken your soul
mirror mirror turn you cold
though i thought that we could build a home
we were broke and bending summer into autumn into ashes
by then i rediscovered love and all of its advantages
you didn't seem too enthusiastic
if you don't want my company then you don't gotta have it
it's a joke, you claim the other then surprised you caught in traffic
insist you don't want fire but keep throwing matches
you said it was bygones, still sleep with the lights on
caught you in a bluff so where it lie, your loyalty?
wanna watch me juggle my troubles then add another
i know that you worried that i'll take it to extremes
what do you mean?
the proof is in the pattern recognition
either admit to it or listen
sitting pretty on your throne counting your diamonds
while outside there are burning homes
i know it's something i don't know and it's valuable
like it'll burn your throat liquid gold
have a feeling the horizon you painted us was biased
dressing like a python, chameleon royalty
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it's all wrong, that's okay, it's not meant to be
all these thoughts up in my head never let me be
i don't wanna start again
dream deprived, can't sleep at night
i can't even start to cry
intentions deflected and
intentions misled me down this shit
i try again, i wanna quit
tell me, should i start again?
i know it's harder to pretend
but i try harder to forget
feels i lost, i never needed them
it's pointless, useless just like me
try so hard like should i stop?
can't make up my mind like i forgot
it's all wrong, just can't be
that's okay, it's not meant to be
all these thoughts in my head
leave me down, leave me dead
all these thoughts in my head
leave me down, leave me dead
i don't wanna start again
i don't wanna try again
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unwanted
01:45
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aftermath
04:24
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emptiness
04:59
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now i'm doing molly in the uber black
miss molly you can't take it back
i'm on the ground, and you're
so cold
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oxytocin
02:54
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call you a liar
set each other on fire
match made in heaven
waiting for 27
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aimless
03:52
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i can call it love now
the distance grants permission
i was scared to name it then
make promises of wishes
we have seen how furrows in the earth can turn to fractures
it’s distance now and fear as well
that holds us safely back here
come back to me
come back to me
when i can tell you where i’ve landed
all that i’ll have there for you
is everything i am
and if you can’t i’ll love you till i don’t:
no less, no longer
humility, it’s not for me to say where you belong
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overstim
02:34
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