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smoking to death (remix)
04:01
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they always ask me to stop smoking cigarettes
telling me one day I'll smoke myself to death
but I'll find my place in this world without you here
but I guess I'll stick around for another year
you were never worth it (never worth it)
begging you to stay with me
I should have known better (known better)
you would never change for me
head in the smoke
eyes hazy, staying low
lost all sight of myself
who am I now?
why waste my time when you could have been mine?
I just wanna be everything you need
got me fucked up in my head again
and it makes it hard to breathe
and I always keep my head in the clouds
'cause I know I'm absolute in doubt
there’s a reason why I don’t call you back
in the end will you haunt me now?
in the end will you haunt me now?
they always ask me to stop smoking cigarettes
telling me one day I'll smoke myself to death
but I'll find my place in this world without you here
but I guess I'll stick around for another year
I wanna be someone (somebody else)
to forget who you are
I’m a lot like you (so much like you)
but you tear me apart
head in the smoke
eyes hazy, staying low
lost all sight of myself
who am I now?
why waste my time when you could have been mine?
I just wanna be everything you need
got me fucked up in my head again
and it makes it hard to breathe
and I always keep my head in the clouds
'cause I know I'm absolute in doubt
there’s a reason why I don’t call you back
in the end will you haunt me now?
in the end will you haunt me now?
in the end will you haunt me now?
I feel like I'm falling all the time
now I feel weightless, high all the time
ready to go now, everything's fine
no reason to live, no reason to die
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PLZ STFU!!!
01:28
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i fucking hate your guts
you're an asshole and you suck
i hope you get hit by a truck
and die
you're a bitch and a cunt
no one likes you all that much
always acting so stuck up
please shut the fuck up
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3. |
what if we kissed irl?
03:52
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what if we kissed irl?
i think it could go well
just want you to stop and hold me
when you kiss me all soft and slowly
what if we kissed irl?
i don't know if you could tell
just wanna be your one and only
you're with me, you don't gotta be lonely
i wanna tangle up both our legs
keeping my head on your chest
there isn't a place i'd rather be instead
than here with you in bed
always taking care of me
checking up and telling me to eat
feeling nervous 'cause i care what you think
you're everything i need
what if we kissed irl?
it's been going pretty well
i hate it whenever you ignore me
i'm afraid you're gonna find me boring
do you love me?
or was it all for nothing?
always online
you can reach out to me anytime
just thought you should know it
i don't feel so hopeless
when i imagine kissing you irl
been missing you like hell
don't ask me how it's going
alone i'm barely coping
but i'm so happy i have you
to dm sweet nothings to
don't know what i'll do if
it proves too good to be true
scared it could be
all for nothing
won't you tell me
one thing:
what if we kissed irl?
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baby i need you in my life, in my life
please bae don't go switching sides, switching sides
i swear this is where you reside, you reside
please bae don't go switching sides, switching sides
yeah yeah yeah
ooh
please don't throw your love away
please don't throw your love away
please don't throw your love away
oh yeah yeah yeah
i'm nauseous, i'm dying
she ripped my heart right out
can't find her, someone to
my eyes are all cried out
lost it, riots
gunfire inside my head, i've
lost it, riots
gunfire inside my head
baby i need you in my life, in my life
please bae don't go switching sides, switching sides
i swear this is where you reside, you reside
please bae don't go switching sides, switching sides
yeah yeah yeah
ooh
please don't throw your love away
please don't throw your love away
please don't throw your love away
oh yeah yeah yeah
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i wanna be haunted
i wanna be loved
i want a lot of friends and
a lot of drugs
i wanna be haunted
i won't leave my bed
and i won't go crazy and i
won't get sad
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me, ooh
so haunt me, haunt me, haunt me, ooh
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i count my steps in between cracks inside the concrete
i wish that sometimes that you wouldn’t ignore me
please ask me how i’m doing early in the morning
these nights turn into weeks, it all feels so damn boring
i don’t wanna be an internet celebrity
i just wanna be everything you’d ever need
instant dopamine, receptors going crazy
retweet my posts so that I can feel less lonely
so stressed out, overwhelmed with doubt
i just wanna blow my brains right out
so stressed out, overwhelmed with doubt
i just wanna blow my brains right out
i don’t wanna be an internet celebrity
i just wanna be everything you’d ever need
instant dopamine, receptors going crazy
retweet my posts so that I can feel less lonely
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pristine
untraced by the world outside you
anyways
I'll never get real and you'll never change to me 'cause I'm not looking
anyways
same night
same humility for those that love you
anyways, anyways
and if you do find someone better
I'll still see you in everything
tomorrow and all the time
don't you like me for me?
is there any better feeling than coming clean?
and I know myself and I'll never love anyone else
I won't love anyone else
I'll never love anyone else
it just feels like
the same party every weekend
doesn't it? doesn't it?
and if you do find someone better
I'll still see you in everything
for always, tomorrow, and all the time
don't you like me for me?
is there any better feeling than coming clean?
and I know myself and I'll never love anyone else
I won't love anyone else
I'll never love anyone else
if it's not supposed to be
then I'll just let it be
and out of everyone
be honest with me
and who do you change for?
who's top of your world?
and out of everyone
who's your type of girl?
and we can be anything
even apart
and out of everything
it doesn't have to be this hard
I could be anyone but I'm so entwined
and out of everyone
who's on your mind?
no more changes
I'll still love you the same
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Imma cut my hair into a bob
and then cut my bangs straight across
then maybe I'll feel human after all
I killed myself in January
please can you forget about me
hollow shell, I know I lack substance
I can't look people in the eyes
I know that you're sad inside
but sometimes, it's better not to cry
my friends all call me Mary Jane
and these places always stay the same
I'm not the person that I used to be
when things we used to do
is a reminder of me and you
I hope someday you'll be happy too
I hope someday you'll be happy too
I hope someday you'll be happy too
Imma cut my hair into a bob
and then cut my bangs straight across
then maybe I'll feel human after all
I killed myself in January
please can you forget about me
hollow shell, I know I lack substance
my head always feels so cloudy
you would be better without me
one of those things that just don't work out
see my reflection in your eyes
the way your hand fits in mine
this is just another one of those goodbyes
this is just another one of those goodbyes
this is just another one of those goodbyes
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna say
goodbye
Imma cut my hair into a bob
and then cut my bangs straight across
then maybe I'll feel human after all
I killed myself in January
please can you forget about me
hollow shell, I know I lack substance
Imma cut my hair into a bob
and then cut my bangs straight across
then maybe I'll feel human after all
then maybe I'll feel human after all
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9. |
hyperempathy
04:14
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follow the stars
and they will take you home
let’s travel up north
where we can see it snow
we will sow an acorn
on all of their graves
hoping maybe they were
taken to a better place
body bag goodbyes
i can hear his mother cry
our father never said
his last goodbye
and amy dunn
was killed when she was 3
when bianca told me
she’s gonna have a baby
hyperempathy, i can feel it physically
i'm scared to lose control of my destiny
hyperempathy, i can feel it physically
i'm scared to lose control of my destiny
follow the stars
and they will take you home
let’s travel up north
where we can see it snow
we will sow an acorn
on all of their graves
hoping maybe they were
taken to a better place
now take the gun, put me out of my misery
can you feel it? all this the pain inside of me
the neighbor blew her brains out yesterday
the only way that she could escape
if God is change
can he take the pain away?
if God is change
will he save us from this place?
hyperempathy, i can feel it physically
i'm scared to lose control of my destiny
hyperempathy, i can feel it physically
i'm scared to lose control of my destiny
follow the stars
and they will take you home
let’s travel up north
where we can see it snow
we will sow an acorn
on all of their graves
hoping maybe they were
taken to a better place
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they call me a stupid idiot
mostly ugly
they'd say "you're a jackass retard fag
get away from me"
'cause they think i don't know what's going on
but i remember them
i remember everyone
i remember everyone
hello
i'm in the locker room
i feel i already lose because
you think you're so tough
and your camera's on
when my pants are off and i
think i've had enough
so now we're in gym class
and i'm always picked last and they
never bat an eye
but after a while
i started to smile because
it built too much inside
hello
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